what are the chances

It seems like every time I want to study there are strange noises everywhere. For example, today I got home and one of the kids across the street was sitting on her porch playing the flute. Who does that? Seriously, I don't think I have ever heard someone play the flute so loudly!

feeling frustrated

I am wondering why I have been studying so darn hard for the bad scores I keep getting on my prep tests. I feel like I have put in so much time but it doesn't really feel like it is paying off... I know I can't get discouraged and I just have to keep trying, but I am frustrated today.

logic games

Ok, so someone told me that I shouldn't call the analytical reasoning section of the LSAT logic "games" because that makes it sound like something that kids in kindergarten could do. I don't think that is true though. First of all, everyone calls them logic games. Second of all, I think some of them are kind of fun, actually. I know, I am sick and twisted, but honestly, if I think of them as super difficult logic questions that were made to purposely boggle my mind, they will be harder. I honestly need to turn them into games because it makes them seem much more fun, and a little bit easier.

so close

I almost did it. I almost got the score I wanted tonight, but instead got a 155. Argh! At least I didn't get lower than that I suppose. I still have a lot of work left to do to get the score I want.

eggs always make me feel better

It is amazing how much food comforts me. I already feel better this morning than I did last night about the LSAT. Eating a good breakfast of egg whites with some jalepenos scrambled in and a side of Greek yogurt with chopped fresh figs and organic granola is somehow boosting my confidence. I suppose that little extra something could be attributed to the great music I have been listening to this morning - Ra Ra Riot, The Stills, The Eels, Ben Lee, Imogene Heap, The Weepies, The Fray, The Shins, Arcade Fire, Bloc Party and The Black Kids. Or, it could be related to the fact that I have not cracked open an LSAT book yet today. I think that is probably the case. Or, maybe it is a combination of all of the above.

I have my second official practice test in LSAT prep class tonight. I really want to get higher than a 155. Speaking of practice tests, my dad was asking me yesterday about what I was going to do if my practice tests don't start improving. He asked if I would postpone the test and keep studying. I feel a little bad, but I laughed out loud at him. I don't know, I just don't see that happening for a few reasons. First of all, by the time test day rolls around, I will have been studying for 2 months, including taking a prep class and if I am not prepared to take the test by then, I am not sure that I ever will be. Also, I think there is such a thing as over studying. Plus, I don't think I could focus for another two months on this material. I think that if I get a 155 on the real LSAT I will be pretty sad, because I will not be able to attend my dream school U of M, but at the same time, I know there will be plenty of other schools that will accept me, so it will not be the end of the world.

In other news, there was a bat murder committed by me last night. I do feel bad killing such neat little creatures, but they should really stay out of my house. I have tried releasing them into the wild, but they just come back. Ok, true I don't have any real proof that the same bats actually come back, but it is just too coincidental that the same day I release one, there is another one in my house right away. I make it sound like I have hundreds of bats in my house. Really there have been several over the last 3.5 years, but I would say the total is under 20. That still is kind of a lot, but it was bad when I first moved in because this house had been vacant for a while, so after I got the initial problem taken care of, it has been a lot better. Now I probably only have one every 4 or 5 months. Anyway, I am pretty much a professional bat killer now. In fact, I have even had friends call me for my assistance when they have had bats in their houses.

Anyway last night I fell asleep reading in bed, and I woke up with the lights still on (thank goodness) and for some reason, my eyes went right to the wall where there was a bat hanging upside down. Immediately my heart started racing, because even though I have dealt with this situation many a time, bats still freak me out. Plus, I had to prepare the area around the bat to deal with the situation before it decided to start flying around. They are much harder to deal with when flying than when they are hanging. When I say I had to prepare the area, I mean that it was hanging right above the desk in my room which I had picture frames on. I was planning to hit it with a broom, and usually when you do that, they fall straight down. I did not want it to fall on the desk, because number one, that would be gross and number two he could have still started flying again as opposed to him being on the floor where he would be pretty much grounded. So, I moved everything out of the way and knocked him down and killed him. Poor guy. I almost wanted to cry a little when I saw his lifeless body lying there.

Anyway, now that my breakfast is finished, I must go and review for my test tonight.

not getting much better

In general, I try not to have a negative attitude ...but I am starting to severely doubt that I am going to get into U of M. The practice tests that I have been taking are not promising. I can't get above a 155. It is really getting me down, but I am trying to keep a positive attitude. I guess I still have a month left to study, so I am trying to keep that in mind...